It got me thinking on how much my mother knows about me and what she meant by the comment she made. I asked her but she told me just in general and would not explain any further. If she only knew I had so much to talk to her about. I feel like she would be such a friend to talk to in good or bad times but my sister who knows about me told me it wouldn't be a good idea cause she doesn't want to be band from seeing me or I her. I love my sister to death so for her I've been holding my tongue and its hard but ive been doing it.
Like I said before, since high school my mother always wanted me to become a nun. And now I think about that and how if she thought she knew about me then that would make a little sense for her to say, at least to me. My mom is a great person and I am her child so it is hard for me not to tell her anything. She tells me so much and teaches me even more but I feel like I am shutting a part of me off. In turn to protect my relationship with my sister and my mom from worrying about me on a religious sense.
I asked her if she was open minded and I told her to think about the question and not to respond right away. Even though my mom answered my question about her being openminded and she said she was I didn't really believe her though. I felt like she was just saying that to get information from me. I can't wait until the time is right to talk to my mother. I am not sure that the she will be alright with it, but I am and that is all that matters to me. My mother's acceptance would be good but it's not mandatory...
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