learning

Well ladies I did it again. I honestly did not want to do that again. But I can honestly say I learned from it. I am not sure that anyone wants to hear that from their ex, date, lover, or friend but it is the truth.

Last year (read this) was a little rocky for me and i appreciate it because it made me stronger and wiser. I hope for more strength and wisdom this year. I hope I can learn and improve myself from the mistakes I've made. I know that communication is an issue but it is being worked out. Sometimes I feel like I need to be a prick in order to get my point across and that is not in my personality. I am a people pleaser and I've realized that in order for someone to take me seriously things need to change. I'm 25 and I hope to have alot more learning and if I do not I enjoyed what learning I had.

Sorry ladies this post is confusing but I choose not to focus any more on the "should have dones" and the "if I coulds"... I want to focus on the "what I learned" and the "loving, laughing, and living I enjoyed". Apologizes said, no regrets, and no take backs, it is just me learning. My 2010 anthem is still rocking in the background and although people do not like it. It is for me! "Because you never know where life is going to take you and you can't change where you've been but today I have the opportunity to choose. I choose!"

Ayiti

So I am officially 25. I took a well needed vacation and went to Las Vegas for a week. It was fun I had a good time. The day of my birthday Jan 12th was the day of Haiti's Earthquake. I do not know if you all know but my mother is Haitian born and raised there. I have not been to Haiti yet but I know that we still have family there. It was devastating to know that the earthquake happened to this beautiful country my mother calls home. She tells my siblings and I about her childhood and how much freedom and fun she had.

Since my undergraduate graduation I thought of going to grad school joining the Peace Corp and going to Haiti to help where ever I was needed. I found out when I got to grad school that the Peace Corp has not gone to Haiti since 2005. I was disappointed to find that out but I told myself I would find a way to make it there and make a difference. Since the earthquake my mother has been watching the news and hoping that she hears from the family in Haiti.

I know of one person in Haiti she is my god sister. I might have talked about her before I cannot remember but my godmother adopted her. When she was in the states she and I did not spend that much time together because of our distance but her story has always stuck with me. She was sent back to Haiti by my godmother when she had her own children... my godmother did not want her anymore. I then found out that the people she was living with in Haiti did not want her there either and treated her like Cinderella was treated in the movie. I am not sure where she is living in Haiti now or even if she is still alive but she is always in my prayers. I thought about her when hurricanes Jeanne and Hanna hit and every time Haiti is in the news. I still think about her. I wish I could do something more now but I know that my prayers are making a difference.

Beautiful people I am asking you to please pray and donate to the people in Haiti if you can. To donate $10 to the American Red Cross Haiti Earthquake relief efforts text "HAITI" to 90999. To donate $5 to Wyclef's Yele Haiti Fund text "YELE" to 501501. Peace and Blessings always!

~Evolving

Wednesday Crush of the Week: Michelle Rodriguez

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Wednesday Crush of the Week: Tionne Watkins aka T-Boz

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The end of 2009

Hello Beautiful people! Seems like the year went by so fast and now it is coming to a close in a day. As I think about my journey and growth over this past year I realize that I have a lot more growing to do. I accomplished a lot but I also made a lot of mistakes this year. I was able to learn and grow from these mistakes and accomplishments and I hope the new year brings more.

The hardest thing that I learned about myself this year was I have a hard time acknowledging my true feelings and coping with my true feelings. I am not exactly sure the moment this year I realized this but when I did it was really hard for me to comprehend. I knew that from time to time I would sacrifice my feelings to please others. But I did not realize that my feelings were being over looked by not only myself but others. I became disappointed in myself when I realized what I had been doing. This upcoming year I am going to work on coping with my feelings and acting on them. I have some reservations about this because of my own insecurities but until I cope with my feelings I am not going to get far in my growth. I am a pleaser and in order for me to look out for myself and grow in the process I need to start listening to me. I do not want to change what I've been through I just want to improve where I am going to.

Graduation is around the corner in 136 days/20 weeks. I never thought I would make it this far but I am here in one piece. This semester went better than expected and I hope my last semester and finding a job is more of a breeze than a struggle. I usually signify the ending of something in my life and the beginning of something new in my life with a tattoo or piercing. In the past it has brought me good fortune in my new beginnings. I've started my search for a symbol of this moment in my life so that I can get a tattoo... any ideas? I am planning on getting the tattoo before or on graduation day because I feel like it will be bad mojo if I do not.

I will be 25 in some teen days and supposedly I am supposed to start my quarter life crisis... wish me luck!

So as this year ends and the new year begins I go dancing to India.Arie's I Choose. Realizing that the ball has always been in my court and now I have to figure out how to use it. Peace, health, and blessing in the New Year!

~Evolving

Wednesday Crush of the Week: Naomi Campbell

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Wednesday Crush of the Week: Jennifer Beals

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