17 May 2010
13 May 2010
Oh Family!
I know everyone has family drama and it just seems like it never goes away and when you all get together it really seems tense. Well that will be my graduation day and I'm so not looking forward to it. The reason *hit will hit the fan is because if it wasn't for me none of these people would ever come together. In a nutshell it will be tension coming from my mom to my dad, my younger brother to my dad and uncle, my sister... Well you get the picture! I really don't want to go through this on my day but I am preparing for it to happen.
If I had the balls to say anything besides "let's just all get along for me on my big day", I would want to say to brother A: how can you be so heartless. You act like we pooped in your cereal. My mother: GET OVER IT! Its been practically 15 years! Entitlement is bull*hit! Brother B: you have a right to be mad but you can't start healing unless you deal with it. Sister: please don't get tangled in this mess! Dad: you are a dick and your brother is more of a father to us than you are! Grow up and be a father! And last but not least sister in law: mind your business! Some things you need to just let it be!
I feel so much better! I just hope that saturday all of that doesn't come out and we can eat a whole meal in peace.
I realize family drama will never go away unless I remove myself from it and I refuse to do that because they are all good people despite the drama and I love them.
On a good note... Yay! My brother is coming to town! My uncle is the best! Yay! I'm graduating!
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If I had the balls to say anything besides "let's just all get along for me on my big day", I would want to say to brother A: how can you be so heartless. You act like we pooped in your cereal. My mother: GET OVER IT! Its been practically 15 years! Entitlement is bull*hit! Brother B: you have a right to be mad but you can't start healing unless you deal with it. Sister: please don't get tangled in this mess! Dad: you are a dick and your brother is more of a father to us than you are! Grow up and be a father! And last but not least sister in law: mind your business! Some things you need to just let it be!
I feel so much better! I just hope that saturday all of that doesn't come out and we can eat a whole meal in peace.
I realize family drama will never go away unless I remove myself from it and I refuse to do that because they are all good people despite the drama and I love them.
On a good note... Yay! My brother is coming to town! My uncle is the best! Yay! I'm graduating!
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12 May 2010
06 May 2010
Finally starting my life
Hello beautiful people! Its been a while... I want to give you a quick update:
Graduation- 9 days
Assignments- 0 wahoo!
Job interviews- 0 (but hopeful)
Field/internship- OVER WITH!
Job search: alive and well
So that's the graduation/ job hunt update. Things seem to be falling into place and I am happy about it. I accomplished goal #1: education and I am ready to work on my life goals.
I was talking with a friend and we were talking about death and how we would feel if our time was up now... morbid... I know, but a good conversation. I told her that if it were my day to go I would be mad because I feel like besides my education I really have not done much with my life. I would be understanding that it is my time but I still would be curious to know why. I would want to ask St. Peter at the gate of heaven why now?
I feel like the BIG education chapter is finally about to close (not for good) and I have time to work on my life goals.
Goal #2: work on getting all 3 of my social work licenses
Goal #3: learning a language... I'm leaning towards French or Sign language cause I'm not too interested in learning Spanish but we will see!
Goal #4: working with the Peace Corps for a couple of years... Any where over seas but it would be nice to go anywhere in the Caribbean Islands or Africa
Goal #5: travel around the world. I have a pretty long list too. Visiting my home countries are on the top of the list.
That is pretty much it for the big goals right now.
So I've been doing this self reflection on the past 2 years and looking at my growth since grad school started. In every class it was drilled into us that in order to help others effectively we need to learn how to help ourselves. That constant drilling clicked and I've been working on helping myself.
Helping myself has taught me how to be honest with myself and others. I've looked at my past and thought about how I could have handled situations differently knowing what I know now...its been interesting. What I've been struggling with the most is my kindness, guilt when I say no, and change. I've come across many situations with my friends and family that I would say I couldn't do something and I would feel guilty but they would some how finagle me into doing it. I've been working on sticking to no and just taking the brunt of whatever comes my way. Change has come up a lot and all I can say is change happens during enlightenment not persuasion.
Right now I am nervous, excited, and scared but I am ready for what ever may come.
Just exploring me!
~Evolving
Graduation- 9 days
Assignments- 0 wahoo!
Job interviews- 0 (but hopeful)
Field/internship- OVER WITH!
Job search: alive and well
So that's the graduation/ job hunt update. Things seem to be falling into place and I am happy about it. I accomplished goal #1: education and I am ready to work on my life goals.
I was talking with a friend and we were talking about death and how we would feel if our time was up now... morbid... I know, but a good conversation. I told her that if it were my day to go I would be mad because I feel like besides my education I really have not done much with my life. I would be understanding that it is my time but I still would be curious to know why. I would want to ask St. Peter at the gate of heaven why now?
I feel like the BIG education chapter is finally about to close (not for good) and I have time to work on my life goals.
Goal #2: work on getting all 3 of my social work licenses
Goal #3: learning a language... I'm leaning towards French or Sign language cause I'm not too interested in learning Spanish but we will see!
Goal #4: working with the Peace Corps for a couple of years... Any where over seas but it would be nice to go anywhere in the Caribbean Islands or Africa
Goal #5: travel around the world. I have a pretty long list too. Visiting my home countries are on the top of the list.
That is pretty much it for the big goals right now.
So I've been doing this self reflection on the past 2 years and looking at my growth since grad school started. In every class it was drilled into us that in order to help others effectively we need to learn how to help ourselves. That constant drilling clicked and I've been working on helping myself.
Helping myself has taught me how to be honest with myself and others. I've looked at my past and thought about how I could have handled situations differently knowing what I know now...its been interesting. What I've been struggling with the most is my kindness, guilt when I say no, and change. I've come across many situations with my friends and family that I would say I couldn't do something and I would feel guilty but they would some how finagle me into doing it. I've been working on sticking to no and just taking the brunt of whatever comes my way. Change has come up a lot and all I can say is change happens during enlightenment not persuasion.
Right now I am nervous, excited, and scared but I am ready for what ever may come.
Just exploring me!
~Evolving
05 May 2010
28 April 2010
24 April 2010
21 days!
Hey beautiful people! I have 21 days left until I receive my Masters in Social Work degree... Yay! I completed my internship friday (a week early but I'm not complaining). I am so glad that is over! I have 1 paper left to turn in and one final next Saturday. So it is definitely winding down for me. I am starting to get excited! I actually accomplished what I set out to in the time I wanted to despite negativity and stress. Wahoo!
So the interview for the job went well, after I left I received an email asking me to send references and some other paperwork. I sent the all the paperwork the next day. I called a week later to see where they were in the decision making. I was told that they do not hire anyone before they are licensed. Prior to the interview I scheduled my Licensed Graduate Social Work (LGSW) test for a week after graduation. Hopefully I pass the exam the first time. I am still searching for a job and hoping for the best.
More updates will be coming soon!
~Evolving
So the interview for the job went well, after I left I received an email asking me to send references and some other paperwork. I sent the all the paperwork the next day. I called a week later to see where they were in the decision making. I was told that they do not hire anyone before they are licensed. Prior to the interview I scheduled my Licensed Graduate Social Work (LGSW) test for a week after graduation. Hopefully I pass the exam the first time. I am still searching for a job and hoping for the best.
More updates will be coming soon!
~Evolving
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