Short & Sweet

So this post will be short and sweet sorry I don't have much time but just know I have a couple of posts in the works coming your way.



- Last Monday went well with my dad. The talk was not anything I expected AT ALL. My dad told me he has cancer and he was going for surgery... THE NEXT DAY! What a shocker! (Wiping the sweat off my forehead cause it wasn't about me whheeewwww!)


- The next day the surgery went well and my sister and I went to see him on Wednesday.


- He is out of the hospital but not out of the woods cause they are not sure if the cancer spread to other parts of the body.


- On a brighter note I went to the beach this weekend and had a blast doing absolutely nothing. Aside from some semi-annoying company all went well. Why is vacationing so darn expensive?


- Since I got back I've visited my dad everyday, he is getting better. In the process I've gotten to see my little cousin that I love dearly. He is such a sweety when he wants to be. Kids are wonderful when you can give them back to their owners LOL... But I'm so serious.


- I am still looking for a good job. I got 3 offers but they were not in my comfort zone of a good offer (one full-time position didn't even include health care). But no worrier I'll get something better. I'm still applying.


- Now that I have all the qualifications for that job I interviewed for I am waiting on them to send me an offer letter like they said they would.

- I'm just plan old TIRED for no reason.
Til next time beautiful people! Good morning/night!



P.S. Thanks Ty for checking up on me!


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Ayiti

So I am officially 25. I took a well needed vacation and went to Las Vegas for a week. It was fun I had a good time. The day of my birthday Jan 12th was the day of Haiti's Earthquake. I do not know if you all know but my mother is Haitian born and raised there. I have not been to Haiti yet but I know that we still have family there. It was devastating to know that the earthquake happened to this beautiful country my mother calls home. She tells my siblings and I about her childhood and how much freedom and fun she had.

Since my undergraduate graduation I thought of going to grad school joining the Peace Corp and going to Haiti to help where ever I was needed. I found out when I got to grad school that the Peace Corp has not gone to Haiti since 2005. I was disappointed to find that out but I told myself I would find a way to make it there and make a difference. Since the earthquake my mother has been watching the news and hoping that she hears from the family in Haiti.

I know of one person in Haiti she is my god sister. I might have talked about her before I cannot remember but my godmother adopted her. When she was in the states she and I did not spend that much time together because of our distance but her story has always stuck with me. She was sent back to Haiti by my godmother when she had her own children... my godmother did not want her anymore. I then found out that the people she was living with in Haiti did not want her there either and treated her like Cinderella was treated in the movie. I am not sure where she is living in Haiti now or even if she is still alive but she is always in my prayers. I thought about her when hurricanes Jeanne and Hanna hit and every time Haiti is in the news. I still think about her. I wish I could do something more now but I know that my prayers are making a difference.

Beautiful people I am asking you to please pray and donate to the people in Haiti if you can. To donate $10 to the American Red Cross Haiti Earthquake relief efforts text "HAITI" to 90999. To donate $5 to Wyclef's Yele Haiti Fund text "YELE" to 501501. Peace and Blessings always!

~Evolving

I was marching were you?

So even though I had a ton of work (as I do now at 3:03 am) myself and gang of 3 went to Washington D.C. to march Sunday. It was only a hop skip and metro ride away from home so it was not as much of a travel as New York, Washington, Utah, Massachusetts, or Florida was for some. There were so many people young, old, and in-between marching it was just amazing! But wildly while I was leaving Staceyann Chin literally ran into me I was most definitely in shock and instead of saying anything I moved away from her. Ridiculous right? I know! Anyway my sister was the official Exploring Me photographer for the day so here is her work. Enjoy!

A Summer's End

Hello beautiful womyn! I know it has been a long while since I posted a read, I've been on hiatus. I wanted to give you a final update on my summer and let you know I am back! So let me give you a summary of my summer since it is pretty much over for me.

I did not have much time to myself to enjoy the beautiful summer because I completed two summer courses. The courses at the end of it all only left me with a couple of weeks of free time which ended being errand time for me to prepare for the fall. But I did get to see Tracy Chapman perform live as well as Natalie Stewart. The Tracy Chapman concert was such a wonderful experience! She is completely amazing, It was a memorable experience and I hope to see her live again. I wish I got a picture with her but maybe next time.

I start classes in on Monday and although I am excited to graduate, I wish I had a little more time to play. But I am ready to get back into the swing of things and I am ready to learn (nerdy right?). The good news is I am planning a vacation to Vegas in January around my birthday so I am really looking forward to that. I also want to plan a cruise/vacation to celebrate me graduating but I am not sure where I want to go just yet. Any ideas?

On a not so great note I lost another friend this summer. What is up with that two summers in a row? I am pretty bummed about it because I know there is no repairing it this time. I've know this friend since my freshman year in college and it is hard to see us part. But I know things happen for a reason and this was out of my control. As I lost this friend I did end up gaining another one and I am grateful for this new friend.

So as I say goodbye to summer 2009 I am welcoming new experiences, change, and learning in fall 2009.

Just exploring Evolving....

Long time coming...

Hey everyone! I know it has been a long time since my last post. Well I've been stressing out about finding a job and now that I have one, I've already gotten a promotion in less than 3 weeks of working there, so the pressure is on. I am now trying to balance work and the reason I came back home... my sister. My sister is at that age where guys are starting to like her and she is starting to like guys. I try to stay out of it as much as possible to give her room to learn and grow, but occasionally she asks me for advice. I am glad that she feels comfortable to be able to come and talk to me in time of adolescent crisis. It has been hard and I feel like I have no time to myself and even though I am around people I love, I'm lonely. I guess everyone else has been on my mind and not myself. 

I am working at a group home with girls from 12-17 teens are a trip and a half just like adults. They will be your friend when they want something and your enemy whenever they feel like it. At times its taxing cause they love you and hate you at the same time but I already love the job. I go home after getting off of work and thank my mother for being who she is and taking care of me the way she did cause there are people less fortunate than me. The job lets me know that people don't change, there are 2 girls there that are there because of their sexuality and their parents could not deal with it. That really saddens my heart to know that there are people in the world so close minded that they would turn their back on their own child... it is sad. 

When I'm at work and get a chance I get online on my cell phone and read your blogs. This part of my life centers me and I like reading about you all. It makes me feel less lonely. I feel like I'm out growing my friend or on a different level than she is, so there is not anyone to talk to anymore. Which makes my loneliness grow even more. 

Decision making has and is very hard cause my sister is my #1 priority and taking the promotion in a way I felt like I let her down. I came here to make her adolescents better and easier than mine was and to get her out of the house more than before. I really came home to make my mom and sister's life easier and I hope my presence is accomplishing that goal. I even started contemplating how it would have been like right now if I was at FAMU but I can't look back I have to look forward. Now I have to think about saving my money to buy a home or renting cause of convenience... decisions, decisions, decisions.

I am adjusting to my surrounding well, I've been to a couple of lounges and a poetry night that was really good. I am still hoping that the semester comes soon though I really want to get back in the swing of things. I hope that soon I'll find a friend to talk to because right now I feel like I have no outlet from work, school, and my family.  

AlOhA!!!

I'm Back! It has been such a crazy month to say the least... So I did not take my laptop with me to Hawaii and in a way I am glad that I didn't it was like a vacation from the everyday use of my computer. I did get on the computers at the hotel for the occasional facebook check and to check my grades, but overall it was nice. The group sang and a couple of locations and the performance was pretty good we had a captivating audience. We also got to see the island and went to the Polynesian Culture Center which was a wonderful experience it was pretty much a sample of all the different Polynesian cultures in one show. Where we were staying there was an abundance of Asian people there touring and store owners too. I was disappointed to not see any really African American people besides the group I was with. 

So the week in Hawaii was good with good performances, good people, and a good hotel. I have pictures and hope to get some up soon. 

Now I've been dreading the end of the week because I'm stuck at my mother's house with no where to sleep and I'm already miserable and its only been a couple of hours. I have no corner or private place I can go and escape to write blogs or just to be away from my family... Last time I was here I got no sleep... 

So this is definitely my motivation to get a job... 

Aloha! Mahalo!

Updates

Ok so I have 10 days left at my apartment and now I can hear my echo cause its so empty. I have not started packing for Hawaii but I'll get that done next week. my semester is pretty much over with all the major papers and presentations turned in and done. Everything is wrapping up nicely but I still have no job!!!

I was offered a job and it's really good pay but it won't really work with my grad school class schedule in the fall. It has a week long training and I don't know if I should take the job and figure out what to do about work and classes in August or if I should tell the person who hired me now and see what he can do. But I feel like it is grimy to wait until August to let him know something I knew since he offered me the job. 

Now I'n just feeling some type of way... I mean going home means I have soo many limitations from the roommates I have to the job I get. I mean don't get me wrong I would do anything for my brothers and sister it's just difficult and I'm not even home yet. I was thinking the other day that it would have been wonderful to go to grad school in Florida and soo much easier to get a job cause all I would have to worry about would be me.

But I know that ship has passed and now I just need to concentrate on what needs to be done and do it. Soo much easier said then done.

Overall I am looking forward to the change and will try to take one day at a time.

Wish me luck!

Have you every felt stuck or cornered? How did you deal?

Aloha

I'm going to Hawaii for a week in May and I'm excited. I've never been and hope to get alot out of the experience. Its not an all fun trip its me and a group of musicians and we are going to musically delight anyone who wants to listen there. Every time we go on tour like this I learn so much more about myself. Its 7 days long and by the 4th day I start spending more time by myself, I don't understand yet why I do that but maybe I'll understand just a little more this time. 

I don't have much in common with my fellow musicians besides music and so it would be hard to hang out with them and have fun. It was funny cause we first had 4 people to a room, so I had some roomies but now it is 2 to a room. I'm kinda the odd Womyn out in the group so now I have no one to room with (great for me but not if  someone gets randomly stuck in a room with me). Anyway I will find ways to have fun and learn something too.

I don't consider this a vacation cause I still have work to do but it will be a refreshing break. Don't worry I just bought myself a digital camera (my first camera) and I'm going to take lots of pictures so that I can show you the beautiful scenery. I'm thinking about bringing my laptop but its new too and I paid alot for it, I don't want anything to happen to it but the hotel has WiFi (so tempting). Its tempting cause I know I'll have alot to talk about. Should I bring it? 

Can't wait to go just have to get through the next 3 weeks with moving, classes, job hunting, and work... 

I love to reading and since it is going to be a 15hr flight I want to stock up on some books any suggestions?